One of the things that helps me connect to my Sweet Perfection is regular coaching. 2013 has been an amazing year of coaching experiences. Perhaps in a future post I will share all the coaching adventures I’ve participated in this year. Right now I want to highlight my experience last Friday night, November 15th, at Mastin Kipp’s Daily Love Tour live event and how it’s carried forward into my week.
The event was hosted at Studio 34 Yoga in West Philadelphia. The studio space is gorgeous and while it was my first visit there I immediately felt at home. After a brief intro to the event by Mastin, he turned it over to Mia (an amazing yoga teacher from NYC) for a Kundalini yoga practice. I’ve practiced yoga on and off since I was in high school. Over the last couple of months I’ve taken up a more regular Vinyasa yoga practice. This was my first experience with Kundalini yoga. I had no idea what to expect. Mia was a loving guide and I immediately enjoyed that the practice was done with our eyes closed focusing our eyes in and up on the brow chakra to stimulate the pituitary gland. The practice was invigorating and allowed me to build and harness a tremendous amount of energy.
Following a sequence of exercises, Mia lead us through an intense mediation where we used our hands as lion paws to remove stuck energy for ten minutes of continuous arm and shoulder movement. Around minute seven when I thought my arms might fall off, Mastin began asking if we could do this and the room began to chant, “Yes, yes, YES!” Up until now, I’ve not considered myself an athlete. However, at this event I learned that my body was capable of things I had not even imagined trying. I now know I can do other new things and push the boundaries of what had been my physical limitations.
The event was five hours long; Mastin followed the yoga practice with teaching and coaching. I’d like to highlight three things that stood out for me and continue to resonate with me now four days following the event. The first is a quote by Carl Jung, “One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” For the last month or so I’ve been wrestling with thoughts and feelings that have felt, at first glance, like they conflict with the dream I am building and the desires of my heart. I had this idea that spirituality was all light and grace and that I should always strive to be in the bliss and gratitude I can find in each moment.
Don’t get me wrong, that’s part of it and there’s more. We each have patterns of thought and belief that have created the life we are living in this moment. Some of them serve us better than others. Becoming aware of what we are creating with our thoughts and beliefs is essential to creating any impactful change in our lives. After some reflection as to why, despite my desire and efforts to build my dream life, I was finding myself feeling negative and frustrated, I realized that this is actually coaching gone right. This is the opportunity to review and re-pattern the unconscious ways I have moved in the world. Only by bringing these to light can I see them for what they are and make decisions about how they serve me and choose to make new choices by conscious co-creation. I invite you to consider for yourself where you are feeling negativity in your life. Know I will share more of my journey as this blog unfolds in the coming weeks and months. In the meantime left me offer that negativity serves a purpose. It is for discernment. It’s to allow you to identify your discontent not with the purpose of remaining unhappy but rather to spur you toward action.
I created this website in June 2013 following a coaching event. I didn’t write my first post until after my coach training in September. I heard another important message in Mastin’s coaching that helped me to understand why I have hesitated to show up here on this page. I’d been thinking I could overcome my fears before I started. I thought I could figure everything out, put it all together in a neat package, tie a bow on it and then tell you about it.
Mastin invited us to see that you have to have fear or you will always live in your comfort zone. Instead of seeking to be fearless, I desire to be courageous. I desire to be afraid and forge ahead anyway. It’s an interesting shift in perspective. I invite you to try it on. I suspect your comfort zone has gotten pretty uncomfortable anyway. I know mine has. Mastin offered, “The more afraid you are, unless you are in mortal danger, you should probably do it.” One of my fears was coming here and actually putting words to this page. I showed up anyway with the intention that you may read something here that resonates with you and spurs you to action.
The evening ended with Mastin taking us through his Heart Process. An amazing woman volunteered to act as the conduit for us all to share this experience. I am so grateful to her and will refrain from sharing any details about her experience, as it is not my story to tell. Mastin showed us how to connect with our hearts and ask our heart to show us what “no” looks like. For me it was an immediate visceral feeling in the pit of my stomach. I had known this physical feeling before and had not been conscious of it’s meaning. Then we asked out hearts to show us “yes.” I had a softening and expansion in the center of my chest. We each then had the opportunity to dialogue with our hearts.
My sensual self is electric and my energy has been running high since Friday’s event. The Kundalini practice broke down a lot of stuck energy just as Mastin promised it would. I am feeling so tuned in and turned on by life. This coaching event helped me to kick start the next phase of my physical transformation which involves greater movement, ease, and pleasure in my body. Check back, I’ll let you know how it unfolds.